i dont know why i cant bring myself to study.

Help?

its already 2010. Boy, how time flies..

So far, I've been fortunate enough to experience winter in Hokkaido in Feb and a madass shopping trip in Bangkok in Mar. Now, logically, its time to study my ass off what could be my last exams ever!

I'm never known to be rational anyway. Hence logic is very subtle.

If only i treat the exams like playing mahjong..

That aside, i've received news i would gladly have wanted to avoid. So many unpleasant things happening to people i care about, not enoigh heart to go out for them.

So dear Lord, please work your magic. Love.

OKTOBER

its been long. i have nothing to say.

because apparently, when you have alot to do in life, you'll realise that you'll have absolutely not enough time to spill out anything online at all.

basically its due to the fact that turning the computer ON is considered time wasting.

regardless, i miss travelling. i wanna do it somemore.

but alas, money is not falling down from the sky. so its still school for me. and i figure that i should appreciate whats left of my academic semester because frankly speaking, i'm in my last yr.

and i dont know if i'm gonna (be able to afford) furthering my education anymore.

so it means the work season will commence. and i stand by my statement that WORK SUCKS.

i dread it. but i have to cos my dear dear parents decided that us, kids are old enough to do self-sustainance. to put words into play, they are actually eloping to France next friday, leaving the brother and i to fend for ourselves for 2weeks.

home alone is so not fun. and omg 2 bloody weeks of not seeing them sucks. knowing that they are having the time of their lives in these 2 weeks without US is even worse. thanks alot parents! (love you still!)

on another note, i think i'm becoming a nerd. will elaborate again (if i find the time).

in the meantime, i need a cure for insomnia. period.

AT STREET 24

Because i find it intolerable, i walked out. Not knowing where or what to go to, the destination in mind was just to-find-peace.

I finally found it at a parkbench where there was almost nobody. Under the dim lights reflected from the hdb flats' corridors, i sat crosslegged, with my mag in tow, closed.

I whipped out my phone, willing negativity away, but to no avail. I tried feigning ignorance, it didnt work. After what seemed like a million other alternatives, i finally looked back, not knowing what exactly was i hoping to find.

Wrong move, kat.

Cos now i know with all my heart, that work superceded me. F you.

830-530 AGAIN

I just watched the youth hockey thing at sengkang with bob. Singapore was playing Russia (which they lost 3-4) but i was at the other pitch watching kiwis and the koalas. (by that i meant NZ vs Australia). Kiwis lost 0-2.

Sigh. I miss being amongst the kiwis.

Anyway, just shortly after my fabulous getaway, i'm already sucked back into the dreadful deskwork. And this time at a different deepartment.

Omg really. Reality wasted no time in bringing me back to the 'must make dough to survive' mode. Reality likes to play bitch. ha.

I wanna go back to the planning department laaaaa.

Imma pray for that tonight.

And because of work tmr, its goodnight for now.

ALL BLACKS.

The weather is so damn fine over here in Rotorua.

I wish it, meaning the holiday, could last, indefinitely.

Of course, not forgetting with the addition of ALL of the ppl that matter. (yes you too bob).

I'm 4 hrs ahead of SG time. So its goodnight for here. (: ttyl.

T minus today.

you would think that after the exams, i'll be free-er than i was during study period. but nooooooooooo.

we tend to plan our lives without the possibility of 'unforseen circumstances'.

i thought this week would be a week for me to tie up loose ends, finish my packing, run finish my household errands and yadayada.

thought doesnt always coincide with reality.

i've never been so mentally phased out in a school-holiday period before. and its only week1!

due to the current swine flu-hype, it is only SMART for ppl with impending travel plans to not fall sick. even the common (always negligible) cough and runny nose should not pose as a problem. but, life is in a whole different swing.

my dad is having some runny nose problems, my mom is having sorethroat/cough. in short, they are both KO-ed for this whole week and are confined to less mentally-taxing tasks because they HAVE TO be well enough to pass through customs.

so its left to the brother and i to do the necessary. BUT, with the car issue, transportation and the cost itself is seriously uncalled for (if idiot over there drove properly). also, the internet modem broke down a few days ago and that warrants someone to go down to payalebar area for an exchange.

oh. and esea is really *adjlsklkjfsernlfajlru!! i feel so manipulated for my skills. hahah. i need a job that gives me job security due the end of august! not for "to-fill-in-the-gap" scenarios!

and DID YOU KNOW WINTER CLOTHES COST LIKE 7401385013703840813million dollars?!!!!

omg. so not good for the current economic crisis at home!

i'm sorry that i cant meet you all enough before you all enlist (figo & vincent).
:(

i'm sorry to the friends that i'm supposed to meet up for coffee with after the exams!
:(

i'm sorry to grandma! (i've not seen you for like a month!)

bahhhh. (many many more sorrys that are yet to be mentioned!)

...........

NZ better be worth it.